My boss has no inkling as to how much her words hurt. I was having a good day…3 interviews…worked on our newsletter…staffing meeting…just a very productive day. I was prepping for the orientation I will be administering tomorrow…and then says says this: “I can’t wait until ‘C’ (my pregnant colleague) has her baby. I will just kiss all those little toes – I swear I will!”
And with those words she just pierced my heart in the deepest way. How I dreamt of kissing Emi’s feet. How I dreamt of tickling Daniella’s. They are dead and gone. I hate this – I hate how grief can just derail the most productive of days. I hate how the most innoncent of comments can leave you speechless and rob you of your resolve.
I hate that they are gone.
I miss you my precious, precious babies…my sweet little girls.