Currently our dreams of becoming parents are on hold. I wanted to be at my new job long enough to have my position protected by law when I go on a 2-3 week leave (approximately) due to the placement of an abdominal cerclage. My anniversary date is November 25th, 2009; that is when I make a year. Any time thereafter, I can go on leave. When I become pregnant again and the baby is healthy, the abdominal cerclage will be placed at roughly 14 weeks. If you do loose math, that means I can’t fall pregnant before September 2009 or else I will be 14 weeks before November 25th. I don’t want a repeat of my last job if I can help it, but I don’t want to wait!
I have every reason in the world to wait until then: to secure my positon further, be protected by law and to work on our debt. Guess what? I don’t want to wait. I just got my period and all I can think about is trying to conceive this cycle. Beefcake and I briefly discussed it, but he feels we have a good plan in place and that we should stick with it. I know he’s right, hell it was my idea in the first place.
A lot of shadow babies are having birthdays. Big Sexy’s daughter just turned two. My husband’s sister, drama queen and my friend from the support group all have new babies that will be turning one this year. Emi’s second birthday is this Monday. And here I am, no closer to my dream, painfully watching time go by.
When will it by my turn?