…possibly one to go. I had my second interview yesterday and met with my potential new boss. I just loved her. I think we really hit it off. She mentioned two times during the course of the interview that we must have been separated at birth. I think that makes for a good impression, wouldn’t you say? At one point she was trying to get across the importance of gaining employee trust and how at a company bbq an employee had her hold his 2 week old daughter…and how cute she was…and yadda, yadda, yadda. It was tough, but I stayed strong and was able to change the subject. We lasted an hour and a half. Without asking she offered the next steps…she would relay her thoughts on me to her boss in Chicago, and then he would either fly in to meet with me (geez, is the position that critical?), arrange a video conference (far more likely) or a telephone interview.
So Beefcake and I have been talking and have come to decision…we are going to put baby-making on hold. Yes, I was thinking about this whole mess…thinking about how I lost my job and my baby and how demoralizing an experience it has been. I derive a lot of my dignity from my work. We all have different barometers for our identity, and mine happens to be working and i’ll be DAMNED if I am caught in the same situation twice if I can help it. So if I get this job – and it is a GREAT job, with a strong company and many, many benefits – i’m going to wait. Wait long enough so that when I get pregnant again and need the TAC surgery I will already be covered by the Famil.y Medi.cal Leave A.ct (FM.LA). (FM.LA is a fe.deral law that guarantees your position and pay for 12 weeks, but you must have worked one full year at full time status, there is a whole lot more to it, but that’s the simplified version). When I lost Daniella, I had only been with my last employer for about 8 months…and FM.LA did not apply. So there you go, that’s our current thought process. I have to admit, the thought of not trying for a while is slowly becoming more and more attractive. By doing this, l will quite possibly have garnered more control of my reproductive life than I have in the last two years. For a time there will be no more sex on demand, no more desparation at the site of another period, no more squeezing my boobs to see if they hurt or checking my cervical mucus and stretching it between my fingers. I can finally use all those cool ‘massage oils’ that kill sperm again. Woohoo!, talk about good times. By the way ladies, I totally recommend tingling (OMG!) and warming is a very close second or just go nuts. LOL.
I want a child more than anything, and it feel surreal to even contemplate putting this dream on hold, but I think it makes sense given the situation and the current state of the economy to secure a job first. And who knows, I may reconnect with old friends too.
What do you think? I would really like to know what you would do???….