We met with Dr. Miracle. My husband and I made the 2-hour drive and were patiently waiting in his office. Three student doctors walked in and sat down. I wanted them to leave and then thought to myself, no, they should remain and learn, and help others some day. My husband cracked jokes with them, I swear, he can make friends with anyone, under any situation. Dr. Miracle strolled in and cut right to the chase. After us asking several questions and he answering and vice versa we came up with a ‘plan’. Being that I held onto Emi until induction at 22 weeks and that my cervix did not display changes with Daniella until 21 weeks, we would aim for a transabdominal cerclage (TAC) at 14 weeks. A sonogram should reveal if the baby shows signs of Meck.el Grube.r Syndrome by 14 weeks. If not, we shall go through with the TAC. Dr. Miracle is so confident that he borders on being cocky. But who can blame him? He boasts a 100% success rate of his TAC’s not failing. He explained the pros and cons of different methods, I told him I trusted him. “You could show up the day of surgery in a clownsuit (this received much laughter from the students), but if you’re comfortable with the procedures and methods, I am too.” He smiled and said “they are laughing because I just might!” Once we all felt satisfied with the information gathering we shook hands; as he shook mine he gave me a genuine smile and said “We will get you your baby”.
We were only a half hour away from Atlantic City casino’s so we decided to go. We had a great time, hung out till the wee house, got buzed with great martini’s, hung out at a beach bar under a beautiful moon with the sound of rolling waves in the distance and ate great Thai food. AND, and, and…won over $2,000 (lost $300, but who the fuck cares)! With all the luck we were having I joked that he should drop his pants so that we could have a go at TTC under our table! (I think I was one martini shy of jumping on him!) We drove home that night exhausted but happy and hopeful. We NEEDED an outing like this. Losing our girls has taken a tremendous toll, and we were forgeting to nurture our relationship. This was great.
We are going to start TTC sometime in September/October. Unlike casinos and the roll of the dice, we will once again gamble on unimaginable joy or unimaginable sorrow.