I have my appointment with the specialist coming up this Monday…yay! We will finally work out a ‘plan’ for the future. Beef.cake (hubby) and I will be putting together our questions/concerns for the doctor this weekend. The next day, Tuesday I also have a post-partum check-up with my ob/gyn to get clearance to go back to work. Speaking of which…I may not even have a job because my fucking boss hired someone to replace me when I was gone. I guess she did not think I would be back, huh? So I am just giving her time to sort things out, because if not I am going to explore my options…lawyer?…pregnancy discrimination suit?….we shall see. In the mean time I am working on polishing my resume and exploring employment possibilities. Those fucking jerks, assholes, mofos, fuckers! What a low-blow. Right below the belt! Geez. I just lost my baby. I had only been out 2 weeks when I told my boss I would be back in roughly 6 weeks. I love the work and the health insurance is awesome, but the enviornment sucks ass.
On another note, my period has arrived. Ahh, bittersweet. The doctor said to wait a minimum of 3 menstral cycles before TTC, so I guess this is the first one. Two to go. All systems go I guess. We have decided we are going to be agressive and try again ASAP. So if I lose my job and my insurance, I will switch over to my husband’s insurance. I already found a very well recommended specialist and affiliate hospital from the AbbeyLoopers board that accepts my husbands insurance. I’m good like that (or manic).
Under the circumstances (lost second baby, job is threatened, heart is broken, soul is sickened), I’m holding up okay.