I can’t stop crying, I miss Emi so much. I should have known it would be this way – she was the first thought I had this morning. I dreamt last night that Tadpole was with us and I was busy changing her diaper and dressing her. What a sweet dream. Now, I am busy reading other loss blogs and all I do is cry and cry.
I just hope terribly that this baby makes it, but I can’t help thinking about Emi.
I am 20 wks and I lost Emi at 22. Halfway point. They say that once you pass the date of your prior loss you do achieve some level of peace.
I don’t beleive it though.
Right now, I am looking forward to my husband getting home. We have a bbq at K&N’s home. We met at the pregnancy loss support group months ago. She is currently pregnant and somewhere in her 6th month I beleive.
Should be fun. I love bbq’s. I’ll likely scare them as I eat them out of house and home.