By Vickie Tushingham
(How Beautiful…How True)
Just for today, I will try to live through the next 24 hours and not to expect to get over my child’s death –
But instead learn to live with it, just one day at a time.Just for today, I will remember my child’s life, not her death
And bask in the comfort of those treasured days and moments we shared.Just for today, I will forgive all the family and friends who didn’t help or comfort me the way I needed them to,
For they truly did not know how.Just for today, I will smile no matter how much I hurt on the inside,
So that maybe my heart will soften and I will begin to heal.Just for today, I will reach out to comfort a relative or friend of my child
For they are hurting too and perhaps we can comfort each other.Just for today, I will free myself from my burden of guilt –
For deep in my heart I know that if there was anything in this world I could have done to save my child from death, I would have done it.Just for today, I will honor my child’s memory by doing something for another child,
Because I know that would have made my own child proud.Just for today, I will offer my hand in friendship to another bereaved parent
For I DO KNOW how they feel.Just for today, when my heart feels like breaking I will stop and remember that grief is the price we pay for loving,
and the only reason I hurt is because I had the PRIVILEGE of loving so much.Just for today, I will not compare myself with others.
I am fortunate to be who I am, and to have had my child for as long as I did.Just for today, I will try to be happy,
for I know that I am not deserting my child by continuing to live.Just for today, I will try to accept that I did not die when my child did.
My life goes on, and I am the only one who can make that life worthwhile once more…